Loss

i guess there is a time to be Emo.

i never thought things like this can effect me so much.

it's not the strength in spirit or soul

it's just lost, something that change where you wouldn't except.

So waisted

nothing fresh

nothing intriguing

I'm just gonna have to make do with some thoughts

i wonder why is everything , motion, actions, thoughts, so slow so grey.

is like there isn't enough sunshine in my face to wake me up in the morning

waking up at the wrong side of the floor maybe

even the weather plays tricks with the critters

maybe this year isn't the year for me

this is just another meaningless years like i had before

i hate being me right now, so dull not edgy and thought just leaves me like the waste of skin and hair

if i could do something different and i hope i always do things that way

is to value time and its tranquility

Lantern night

I like Chinese festivals, i do.

The family gathering , the food, the cousins and doing some illegal stuff once in a while.

but things do get less interesting when you grow up, it seems to get worst every year, but i think the smaller children will still enjoy them more then me.

my aunt toke out a box of old stuff left behind from decades of lantern/Chinese festivals and i found my old lanterns i use to run around with when i was a kid, and is really cheesy too, a Batman lantern in a flying position, i call it now SuperBatman a design so awkward only Chinese lantern designer could sell. At least it's more cooler than a Ben 10 lantern haha.

I had fun trying to line up the candles on card boxes, me and my young cousin sister made a Heart shape and " I LOV U" letter, it's a little childish but what else can i do in front of the kids.
we also enjoy playing the"POPS" but my bro had a better idea long time ago and burn a whole bag of them "POPS" so it makes lots of sound faster.

Moon cakes has become an issue for me, they seem to evolve every season , it started with different paste like green tea and coffee or coconut flavor. then made them to ice-creams, then mini moon cakes then etc. i tried Starbucks version, really it was good but there like 15bucks a piece. Durian was unbearable . and jelly was, well i never liked jelly so i won't make this harsh.