Dreams of travel

People always ask people about their Goal in life,

some have their goal set far and some like me have it close.

but i would want to be different now, i want something i can look forward too in the next 1-2 years

i had this in mind for along time, a journey. pacifically a backpacker's journey.

i would like to go places where i can see origin and culture form by time and people.

places i thought of recently were places like my ancestry hometown in china, or places in Europe which is a backpackers ideal spot anyway. or maybe alittle more risky like Israel and Palestine .

i recently watch Globe tracker which was ones Lonely Planet which i still like to call the documentary travel show, a wall dividing the Palestinians from the Israelis, something familiar like the Berlin wall. Laureen a good friend of mine brought this up with a post of an article, showing displeasing feelings against such acts by there government . how would u feel to be divided between KL and PJ by a huge long line of concrete slabs, It can't be comfortable for sure. thing like this should even exist in the modern world, as much as differences of ideals between nations and government to break people away form their home.

To start planing for those travels i gotta need a plan. Money , info , health. i must come up with a list of things to look out for.

Loss

i guess there is a time to be Emo.

i never thought things like this can effect me so much.

it's not the strength in spirit or soul

it's just lost, something that change where you wouldn't except.

So waisted

nothing fresh

nothing intriguing

I'm just gonna have to make do with some thoughts

i wonder why is everything , motion, actions, thoughts, so slow so grey.

is like there isn't enough sunshine in my face to wake me up in the morning

waking up at the wrong side of the floor maybe

even the weather plays tricks with the critters

maybe this year isn't the year for me

this is just another meaningless years like i had before

i hate being me right now, so dull not edgy and thought just leaves me like the waste of skin and hair

if i could do something different and i hope i always do things that way

is to value time and its tranquility

Lantern night

I like Chinese festivals, i do.

The family gathering , the food, the cousins and doing some illegal stuff once in a while.

but things do get less interesting when you grow up, it seems to get worst every year, but i think the smaller children will still enjoy them more then me.

my aunt toke out a box of old stuff left behind from decades of lantern/Chinese festivals and i found my old lanterns i use to run around with when i was a kid, and is really cheesy too, a Batman lantern in a flying position, i call it now SuperBatman a design so awkward only Chinese lantern designer could sell. At least it's more cooler than a Ben 10 lantern haha.

I had fun trying to line up the candles on card boxes, me and my young cousin sister made a Heart shape and " I LOV U" letter, it's a little childish but what else can i do in front of the kids.
we also enjoy playing the"POPS" but my bro had a better idea long time ago and burn a whole bag of them "POPS" so it makes lots of sound faster.

Moon cakes has become an issue for me, they seem to evolve every season , it started with different paste like green tea and coffee or coconut flavor. then made them to ice-creams, then mini moon cakes then etc. i tried Starbucks version, really it was good but there like 15bucks a piece. Durian was unbearable . and jelly was, well i never liked jelly so i won't make this harsh.

Wednesday Thrusday

This is an unusual day

Hawaii and Indonesia having large earth quake at the same day...maybe..

good chance to blog it up,

God im bored.

Two weeks of freedom to suffer in boredom

The title says it all.

next break would be worst and ill last a month.

hey on a brighter note

Im writing in my blog.

see what i did there.

haha.

Back to college

As expected it was a ruff stuff coming back.

some bad omen if you will is going on with the SBO team.

i just got the news that EM was frozen, not allot of attention is paid in that department.

Cf isn't rising nor is it going to get any easier to run , i expected that long time ago and am ready to face those obstacles with full force and enthusiasm.

on a lighter note.

i'm back in college ^^

#20

I just came back from camp...3 days ago



After photoshoping and uploading pictures to facebook i found the strength to blog about my experience



this will be my last time numbering by blog title, and you know what , it feels like liberty.



as many as you know my first choice in PD is not to be in MAD camp but with a bunch of college mate



but deep down i feel somehow obligated or in guilt if i didn't attend MAd camp, it just grips me.



feeling all sour inside i gave no expectations but to rest myself and have no intentions to join the youth group.



i brought my camera and packed light, wearing a brown hat with a ready to crash look .



arriving there the surprise came by news from my college mates side



Me:hows the beach there



Jacky or Dayton: (interpretation) Shit



Me: mine looks great, how bout i go to your place when your having BBQ



Jacky or Dayton: Sure, my place(10 min drive from Golden Straights)



Me: taxi cost allot.will see how it goes later



i have to say though the plus side is the great looking beach i had



the food they serve in my place is (lack of a better /nicer word) Shit



but that is all that in a side...

I found myself blessed again

God gave me something on those 3 days i was hoping to fill for 6 months...(end #20)

#19

It's been awhile now since


i quit both of my job, with permission la


And i think i learn from both experience equally


'SHIT was so boring and hard out there, i wanna go back college'

that how would i have told people when i was working


but really it open my horizons, is also because of Project Barnabas

That i chose to open up on the idea of a private business venture or some sort.

also because i need money to upgrade stuff

just a reminder to self: Screen for desktop
laptop battery
SDRAM
windows 7( covered but still)
new t-shirts(wardrob getting rusty)
savings( super important)

#18

I had one of those bad day yesterday and i want to admit clearly i was wrong

in church i had to meet nicki up to dicuss about camp book

before that john told me to bring jason and vincet home

i told him i could if he comes along because i never driven to desa petaling

he didn't, after putting those two down the apartment i was left shitless

i had no idea were i'm suppose to go and end up in the high way to kl

all the way i was swearing and cursing and hoping to punch the shit out of john when i see him

i was lost , panicking and almost knocked a taxi

and when i came back to meet nicki i was in sour mood

and wasn't listening to what she said but i know my work is done

i pack off and left, not even looking at her face.

but the truth is i was able to forgive john for his mistake

and i thought i couldn't face the incident on the road but i toke it as a lesson

i feel bad then that i left the work i'm suppose to do

i guess i'll take it as a lesson to myself to never let lose my frustrasions

#17

I've been wondering all my life

Who i am , Who i want to be , what i can i change , what is my lifes aim

Everyone have had this thoughts

But i think what i want to know is

If i can be bigger

bigger that what i see around me

All i need is to belive that something more is there or here for me

and i want to get there.

and i'm not giving up now.

#16

I'm blogging from my IBM A22m

It's soooo awesome

I'm gonna call it DInosaur

#15

i wish i knew whats wrong with me

is like i don't even know i changed

i'm affraid i don't know myself anymore

i guess i just lost control

#14

You know those days

where you just wanna scream out loud "This is Bullshit,useless,waste of my freaken time"

Ya well, mostly my job.

but a simple solution just change my entire perspective for the day.

a shoe pad,

my legs hurt from standing and serving for a entire day.

yup. just one of those day.

Get a cup from Loe's

#13

I have a slight choice to make

not a lot of people will respect my view

I applied leave date on the 10 & 12 of June

I have two events to go to at the same time

All in Port Dickson

Mad camp or with college friends on the 10 to 13 of may

this point on allot of my church mates will frown on knowing I'm having a hard time considering

It's Mad and it's important to youth ,but I'm not too in to it.

allot of my college mates are going, and is cheaper.

so if i go P.D for Pleasure why do i have to choose the one i dislike the most

Is really Because i feel responsible to attend MAD camp, or just guilt from being self indulgent.

#12

Very very tired coming back from work

tomorrow i will start work in LEO'S

I don't wanna type no more

PICTS!

Aurea and jason

Kong kee and Jovita with Jacq on the background

Sheau pey, kong kee, Alex, jovita


Yoke lun, Chee ming, Han watching a badminton match

They support Thailand

All makaning

The weirdest Pict so Far

#11

It's saturday morning

have to get ready for an interview

yesterday i manage to reformat my Pc

pretty boring stuff, took me 3 hours to install everything

can't wait for tonights reunion , camera time .

#10

Les Miserables

this is what i know of the story so far

It's base in french

there a poor street girl that steals with her father for a living.

she has a desire to be in love with a rich boy from a whealty family.

one day she finally meets him and started talking to each other

the boy ask her for a favor, he want her to investigate on a rich girl he likes

being a thief and very excited to have meet him , she agrees to do so

She hides behind her front gate trying to find information about the rich girl

one day after her father tried to rob the house of the very same rich girls family

she got shoot

and was held in the arms of the rich boy

grateful being close to the one she loves, she dies peacefully

and the rich boy then married the rich girl.
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Yeah, not your Cinderella story.

that's just one part of the story.

see the videos of Les Miserables 10Th anniversary

this one has the song Susan Boyle sang on Britain got talent' I dream a dream'

It's soothing but the lyrics so depressing like listening to Satan singing you to sleep.

#9

I have something intresting to share about a play,
but i don't think i have the focus to write it now,
so ill hold it till tomorrow.

Watch it first
Les miserables


Quicke,

I'll start work tomorrow so drop by and say Hi

Mad camp is coming, Sign Up

Project Barnabas next following week

Holla at Aurea , nice hair color, looks great.


Good night & Good luck

#8

I got a job in midvalley...and i forgot the name of the place

oh..something with MEN in the end

it's a boutique

and a it has shirts and shoes and stuff

ya

and uh it looks good

and uh

uh

ya and uh

oh it requires me to wear a jacket coat

so i think that's bout it

peace uh

humans

(this is how i think when I'm bored)

It's Philosophy Men

#7

I CAN'T POST PICTS!!!

this won't happen if i got my own domain ...yes i know i also saw Jamie's new blog

wasn't an exciting day , was hunting jobs again supposedly with Dayton but he's a no show.

I had my thoughts on the days in college , times when i want to achieve status as a top designer.

Is actually easy to understand the obstacles ahead but managing and persevering in balance is just brutal.

Designer are Travelers more than a Marathon runner or a sprinter.

your goals are never to easy to solve or to rush them till the finish.

you have to be traveler, in many seance true since we have to buy stuff everywhere very far.

like an amazing race show, you got to move fast but obstacles always pops up and you can't skip them.

solve a problem one at a time , do it to fast and it may come back, do it to slow and you be very very late.Do it smart,Do it hard,Do it right.

but your not without resources, people who have problems opening up to communicate with their lecturers or their fellow piers tends to move backwards and never progress. so be realistic and start making your connection available for you. Be nice.

And for people who really want to make a difference out there in the big playing field, always always have faith. You may be strong, you maybe weak in other points but all you really need is empowerment from family, friends , Dog , Cat, teddy bear, Spongebob. But i believe God always gives me plenty and abundant of what i need, sometimes so much i have to ask him to hold back alittle, is scary when allot comes.

#6

It's mothers day today

guess what i did
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I didn't buy my mom a gift.

instead i offer to restore her old photos

pretty sweet idea Huh,came out of the blue

but it's not easy at all, photoshoping photos might sound easy,photoshoping a photo the size of 6mb is not

it took me a good one hour to restore one of the 20+ photos she had

and in the end of the process the maximum size was over 20mb...i got it to the lowest to check it out on jpeg..it was 2.5mb...serious work

better than getting her a card again huh..

#5

Well i attended church today

working with Nicki on the changes for the camp book design

i knew i was missing the point on how it should attract an audience for the age of 17 below

so I'm going a little fresher on the looks, with the help of James

James a smart kid who likes to explore new design ideas and take in old ones ,he does car sketches which are great in detailing.he's got allot going for him in the design world and i know he can make it big out here.

just got a notice that there would be another class gathering next week for 5S5. Walao Eh we just had that 3 months ago, MAN are we tight.

#4

I never really put emotions on writing





it always sound cheesy upfront, never got a hold of composing myself in those situation.





Anyway, drove to kong kee's place and went for lunch at kucai lama KFC





driving there was hard, but KK help me out alot teaching me how to handel braking so i was fine





Finish a mock up for the camp book and it feels relaxing....

To the BEACH

#3

Got my car back from the shop today

It's my first time driving after taking my license

so i got my brother on my side and drove to Lee Joe's house

drove back home and accidentally knocked the cupboard from the front

luckly i had a bullbar upfront so nothing was damaged

Teehee.

PLAYING MY BABY

#2

well ... nothing much to say



woke up in the morning to have my dental appointment near pearl point



walk from pearl point back to home



went to college and meet with mates and read books in the library


go to Timesquare with dayton



bump in to his friends , tagged along.



went shopping for the girls party dress while waiting for paul



paul came , go to the music store down the street and bought my new guitar



came back home and learn some strumming.



to bed.



oh yeah , pretty productive day.





I just love days like this

So I'm now in my deferment in college, AKA for you people I'm taking time out

people ask me why i do this and to tell you the truth, shit I'm doubting myself on why am i doing it the first place.but i know i need this.

so to bring my head around I'm going to do this

I am going to update my blog everyday(SHIT)a tall order for a asslazy guy

updating on the things i do and planing to do to see the improvement ill have in this period of time I'm off college.

so to make an effort of doing so i

Am going to start now and label it #1

just got the jpeg of the mad camp forms from nicky so i can work on it for the front page of the camp book , the fireplace MAD word was a pretty sweet idea. just need to fix it up a little to male it look more realistic , planing on a beach scenery on the top , i wonder if i should keep it sunrise or sunset.

and darn cure the weather these day, making my whole family ill sneezing, i wish I've listen to MTV about the effect of global warming, lots and lots of dust.

I've found IT

I Found something i have been looking for,

It's has not been long but to me it felt like forever,

This will put back the peaces,

This will make me whole again,

And i found it At 3.A.m,

It's a memory, a journal , history, and so much more.

Through the times I've been given new and wonderful opportunities,

It got lost on the way of my freedom,

And now i know is more important then ever,

no more Searching no more Running no more Jumping no more Waiting,

It's time i come back with all i am ,

I guess the only thing to do now is to say 'welcome back'

The T.D.F Syndrom

I have it, it rarely occurs and now it comes unknowingly,

people do sometimes crave for to much of something,

and later left with nothing at all,

Its horrible, I'm To Damn Free!

Is the new year and a new term has just started, and i knew i would only have one class a week ( i can feel the hate and jealousy pouring out of people ) but i thought it will bring lots of work to me, It's been 2 weeks I've been in my Technical Drawing class and theres nothing to do AT ALL!

See It was so hectic for me last term and before the other that i was use to working like a machine. but suddenly i have to slow down productivity. and boy does it suck.

I feel like a Sport car full of turboed horsepower driven in a small town at 0.1km/h

or a heavyduty chainsaw cutting butter

or a professor teaching kindergarden

or a 10 ton lorry picking up peas

.....

I'll stop my Bitchen here

Must fill up the time i have before C.N.Y when ill find work after i guess...

im so free these days i'm writing my Blog in like a billion years and been searching for blogs of friends to read to kill time. intrestingly today i saw JAMIES blog..and guess what, i was shocked . i thought i clicked a wrong link or something couse the first thing i see is a screen shot of Left 4 Dead. I was like nawww man...cant be. but she says shes a gamer ,something i wouldn't know if i didn't have time to notice that there are girls who play Left4Dead before i even started. Girls will PWND you in games if they like...scary .

I'm also picking up books to read

'A Prisoner Of Birth' (latest)

and downloading song so i don't get BRAIN DEAD.

Play basketball till my legs snap( i hurt mine yesterday on a 3on 3 match, more convincing then getting hurt C Walking EhH)

and playing Dead Space which is so much scarier then Quake4.

ill leave you guys with a picture i took in KLCC(not inked so u can copypasta it if you please),

it represents me starting at Ceilings when im half brain dead.

Back Then

I have this CRAVING for alternative rock like back in the late 90s

Searcing for music on youtube( smart people google those info ...but im lazy to read)

found some really cool song

-bling 182 - all the small things

-sugar ray-every morning
-someday

-uncle cracker-follow me

-Eagle Eyed Cherry-save tonight

Aren't they memorable.

Well if i could find some more i tell yea but im just to lazy to type

Bye peeps