And goes another couple of days and i find myself without content to blog about but forcefully start typing hopelessly. but on days when i had ideas that could have been potential blogging materials back when i was absent from my blog had been laid to waste in the back of my head. as if chances had been snap away by crippled goals through lack of self motivation. but my goal now is to keep the ball rolling so no more injustice shall be done to good workable content.

I had the idea for a series of post with the subject using a single word and define it myself to show that there are different understanding or deeper meaning to a single word that makes it personal to anyone. and by so helps me express my personality or the kind of idealist i am .to show how a word might mean differently to another individual. A single word can have a different meaning through time in a persons life. so no matter how you judge me in my view of a word it will never hold it's character or personal definition. it will take some deep alone time kind of thinking and a few jots on notes for me to get started but it won't take long to render.but hey at list i'm working on some personal intellectual content for my blog . all that daydreaming thoughts have to go somewhere so why not write it down to remind myself of these self discoveries.

2010

Hi , welcome back.

your last entry was more than 6 months ago.

please insert more post or this blog will officially be dead and unrevivable.

Thats what they should have told me when i logged in to find a ruin of whats is known of/as a blog.

guess i'm back in the blogging train and ready to add some coal in this mother engine to get it rolling.

one more thing i change around here is played with the new blogger design editor.

about me, currently how are things looking.

this is my senior year in college

i'm doing borderline 'ok' as far as grades go

just got a little meatier, alittle gut coming out, not exactly chubby but could lose a pound

my good friend, i mean really good friend Joe is leaving for the land of the free...oil on the sea. neh just messing with Americans.

and the biggest news of all, i ain't single no more baby :(..... I MEAN :D yes la!

Dreams of travel

People always ask people about their Goal in life,

some have their goal set far and some like me have it close.

but i would want to be different now, i want something i can look forward too in the next 1-2 years

i had this in mind for along time, a journey. pacifically a backpacker's journey.

i would like to go places where i can see origin and culture form by time and people.

places i thought of recently were places like my ancestry hometown in china, or places in Europe which is a backpackers ideal spot anyway. or maybe alittle more risky like Israel and Palestine .

i recently watch Globe tracker which was ones Lonely Planet which i still like to call the documentary travel show, a wall dividing the Palestinians from the Israelis, something familiar like the Berlin wall. Laureen a good friend of mine brought this up with a post of an article, showing displeasing feelings against such acts by there government . how would u feel to be divided between KL and PJ by a huge long line of concrete slabs, It can't be comfortable for sure. thing like this should even exist in the modern world, as much as differences of ideals between nations and government to break people away form their home.

To start planing for those travels i gotta need a plan. Money , info , health. i must come up with a list of things to look out for.

Loss

i guess there is a time to be Emo.

i never thought things like this can effect me so much.

it's not the strength in spirit or soul

it's just lost, something that change where you wouldn't except.

So waisted

nothing fresh

nothing intriguing

I'm just gonna have to make do with some thoughts

i wonder why is everything , motion, actions, thoughts, so slow so grey.

is like there isn't enough sunshine in my face to wake me up in the morning

waking up at the wrong side of the floor maybe

even the weather plays tricks with the critters

maybe this year isn't the year for me

this is just another meaningless years like i had before

i hate being me right now, so dull not edgy and thought just leaves me like the waste of skin and hair

if i could do something different and i hope i always do things that way

is to value time and its tranquility

Lantern night

I like Chinese festivals, i do.

The family gathering , the food, the cousins and doing some illegal stuff once in a while.

but things do get less interesting when you grow up, it seems to get worst every year, but i think the smaller children will still enjoy them more then me.

my aunt toke out a box of old stuff left behind from decades of lantern/Chinese festivals and i found my old lanterns i use to run around with when i was a kid, and is really cheesy too, a Batman lantern in a flying position, i call it now SuperBatman a design so awkward only Chinese lantern designer could sell. At least it's more cooler than a Ben 10 lantern haha.

I had fun trying to line up the candles on card boxes, me and my young cousin sister made a Heart shape and " I LOV U" letter, it's a little childish but what else can i do in front of the kids.
we also enjoy playing the"POPS" but my bro had a better idea long time ago and burn a whole bag of them "POPS" so it makes lots of sound faster.

Moon cakes has become an issue for me, they seem to evolve every season , it started with different paste like green tea and coffee or coconut flavor. then made them to ice-creams, then mini moon cakes then etc. i tried Starbucks version, really it was good but there like 15bucks a piece. Durian was unbearable . and jelly was, well i never liked jelly so i won't make this harsh.

Wednesday Thrusday

This is an unusual day

Hawaii and Indonesia having large earth quake at the same day...maybe..

good chance to blog it up,

God im bored.

Two weeks of freedom to suffer in boredom

The title says it all.

next break would be worst and ill last a month.

hey on a brighter note

Im writing in my blog.

see what i did there.

haha.

Back to college

As expected it was a ruff stuff coming back.

some bad omen if you will is going on with the SBO team.

i just got the news that EM was frozen, not allot of attention is paid in that department.

Cf isn't rising nor is it going to get any easier to run , i expected that long time ago and am ready to face those obstacles with full force and enthusiasm.

on a lighter note.

i'm back in college ^^

#20

I just came back from camp...3 days ago



After photoshoping and uploading pictures to facebook i found the strength to blog about my experience



this will be my last time numbering by blog title, and you know what , it feels like liberty.



as many as you know my first choice in PD is not to be in MAD camp but with a bunch of college mate



but deep down i feel somehow obligated or in guilt if i didn't attend MAd camp, it just grips me.



feeling all sour inside i gave no expectations but to rest myself and have no intentions to join the youth group.



i brought my camera and packed light, wearing a brown hat with a ready to crash look .



arriving there the surprise came by news from my college mates side



Me:hows the beach there



Jacky or Dayton: (interpretation) Shit



Me: mine looks great, how bout i go to your place when your having BBQ



Jacky or Dayton: Sure, my place(10 min drive from Golden Straights)



Me: taxi cost allot.will see how it goes later



i have to say though the plus side is the great looking beach i had



the food they serve in my place is (lack of a better /nicer word) Shit



but that is all that in a side...

I found myself blessed again

God gave me something on those 3 days i was hoping to fill for 6 months...(end #20)

#19

It's been awhile now since


i quit both of my job, with permission la


And i think i learn from both experience equally


'SHIT was so boring and hard out there, i wanna go back college'

that how would i have told people when i was working


but really it open my horizons, is also because of Project Barnabas

That i chose to open up on the idea of a private business venture or some sort.

also because i need money to upgrade stuff

just a reminder to self: Screen for desktop
laptop battery
SDRAM
windows 7( covered but still)
new t-shirts(wardrob getting rusty)
savings( super important)

#18

I had one of those bad day yesterday and i want to admit clearly i was wrong

in church i had to meet nicki up to dicuss about camp book

before that john told me to bring jason and vincet home

i told him i could if he comes along because i never driven to desa petaling

he didn't, after putting those two down the apartment i was left shitless

i had no idea were i'm suppose to go and end up in the high way to kl

all the way i was swearing and cursing and hoping to punch the shit out of john when i see him

i was lost , panicking and almost knocked a taxi

and when i came back to meet nicki i was in sour mood

and wasn't listening to what she said but i know my work is done

i pack off and left, not even looking at her face.

but the truth is i was able to forgive john for his mistake

and i thought i couldn't face the incident on the road but i toke it as a lesson

i feel bad then that i left the work i'm suppose to do

i guess i'll take it as a lesson to myself to never let lose my frustrasions

#17

I've been wondering all my life

Who i am , Who i want to be , what i can i change , what is my lifes aim

Everyone have had this thoughts

But i think what i want to know is

If i can be bigger

bigger that what i see around me

All i need is to belive that something more is there or here for me

and i want to get there.

and i'm not giving up now.

#16

I'm blogging from my IBM A22m

It's soooo awesome

I'm gonna call it DInosaur

#15

i wish i knew whats wrong with me

is like i don't even know i changed

i'm affraid i don't know myself anymore

i guess i just lost control

#14

You know those days

where you just wanna scream out loud "This is Bullshit,useless,waste of my freaken time"

Ya well, mostly my job.

but a simple solution just change my entire perspective for the day.

a shoe pad,

my legs hurt from standing and serving for a entire day.

yup. just one of those day.

Get a cup from Loe's

#13

I have a slight choice to make

not a lot of people will respect my view

I applied leave date on the 10 & 12 of June

I have two events to go to at the same time

All in Port Dickson

Mad camp or with college friends on the 10 to 13 of may

this point on allot of my church mates will frown on knowing I'm having a hard time considering

It's Mad and it's important to youth ,but I'm not too in to it.

allot of my college mates are going, and is cheaper.

so if i go P.D for Pleasure why do i have to choose the one i dislike the most

Is really Because i feel responsible to attend MAD camp, or just guilt from being self indulgent.

#12

Very very tired coming back from work

tomorrow i will start work in LEO'S

I don't wanna type no more

PICTS!

Aurea and jason

Kong kee and Jovita with Jacq on the background

Sheau pey, kong kee, Alex, jovita


Yoke lun, Chee ming, Han watching a badminton match

They support Thailand

All makaning

The weirdest Pict so Far

#11

It's saturday morning

have to get ready for an interview

yesterday i manage to reformat my Pc

pretty boring stuff, took me 3 hours to install everything

can't wait for tonights reunion , camera time .

#10

Les Miserables

this is what i know of the story so far

It's base in french

there a poor street girl that steals with her father for a living.

she has a desire to be in love with a rich boy from a whealty family.

one day she finally meets him and started talking to each other

the boy ask her for a favor, he want her to investigate on a rich girl he likes

being a thief and very excited to have meet him , she agrees to do so

She hides behind her front gate trying to find information about the rich girl

one day after her father tried to rob the house of the very same rich girls family

she got shoot

and was held in the arms of the rich boy

grateful being close to the one she loves, she dies peacefully

and the rich boy then married the rich girl.
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Yeah, not your Cinderella story.

that's just one part of the story.

see the videos of Les Miserables 10Th anniversary

this one has the song Susan Boyle sang on Britain got talent' I dream a dream'

It's soothing but the lyrics so depressing like listening to Satan singing you to sleep.